Holidays

I have seen all the thing that can be done during the holidays, but most people just want to use you for what they can get out of you. some people think if they offer party favors they should have the run of the mill. Some think if they are providing sexual favors that you should be content to bending over backward to put them at the top your priority list.

People will come to your home spill drinks on your carpet and will not even tell you since it isn’t their floor. They feel they are exempt to cleaning it. They will damage your property and have an explanation why it is okay. “You can just buy another one”, this is their response because they believe that since it was an inexpensive item you have money to waste. You took care of for a long time and now they just come mess things up for you to fix it.

These people come in your home boisterous about the delicious cooking and ruins your pots/pans with the saying, “I will buy you another one”. Of course, you never get it. Obviously, if they had a bunch of things of their own and valued other people’s property they would understand why their visits become fewer and fewer.

Picture set

Remove 1 Damage pic from above and replace with 1 below!

Some people think they can fix a problem that their friends caused with deciding what solution would make it okay. For example, let’s say Mary had a Schwinn beach cruiser bike, she lends it to John but Sally his girlfriend broke it. John decides he will give Mary a cheap Walmart Murray  bike and thinks that should solve the issue. John didn’t consult Mary or ask if that was the type of bike she had. John thinks he is doing the right thing because he replaced a bike with another bike. Unfortunately, some things can’t be replaced. I heard of a similar issue, but it was a piece from a collection and the whole collection needed to be replaced.

This 2016 is the year of not being stepped on because you have a kind heart. Time to move up a notch and don’t look back for people that like it down below. Create something in your life that you are proud of and make yourself feel good inside. Give without validation. Don’t always take from others but help others. I want to start helping only those who want my help and will do something about it. If you want to improve your life, I will help you get started but it is up to you to keep it going.

My New Year’s resolution is to work on me. I want to change things about myself that I was afraid to change because of my friends. I now know that they were not friends and don’t really care anyway. I will need to change my lifestyle and my household. My association will  change to like minded individuals. I will loose quite a few connections, but I need to step my life up and if you aren’t moving in my direction and happy where you  are, I will be leaving you behind.

 

Yay! I Did It.

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Victory.”

Removing obstacles

I needed to make sure there was less distraction in my home so that I may focus on myself. I had a couple of friends that were staying with me intermittently. I got rid of one of them at a high cost but rather quickly. The other took six months to remove, but at the expense irritation and frustrations that have built up. I am finally free!

Roquefort

The one that took the longest, I think, misunderstood the reason for him leaving. I needed to work on my issues and the side effects of my issues, but with no distractions. I allowed myself to be distracted with helping friends and not trying to hurt their feelings. The longer it took for him to leave, the harder it was going to be to hang out with him under different circumstances. I wanted outside of the home interactions with him, but now I can’t handle that anymore. It is my fault for letting it drag on so long which may me go pass my tolerance level.

I felt like my apartment was taken over by someone else and that I could only suggest things to happen here. I know, again, it was my fault for allowing it, but I became more and more vulnerable to manipulation. Even though I let myself be manipulated, I was so afraid to hurt his feelings. I also had cut out the outside activities with him due to mass interaction in my place.

Kenny

I hadn’t seen him for awhile and wanted to know if he was doing ok. I invited him over one night and it turned into a month. I then started splitting the weeks so that I could have me time. I think he believed there were other men or something else going on other than what I told him. I joined a bill with him and he felt, for some reason, that I was trying to get over on him. I showed the bill and verified his agreement, but he did not agree. We agreed on a time for him to get his things and he was supposed to pay me, unfortunately, has not contacted me since. At least, my connections with him are now over.

New Journey

Now I have disconnected myself mostly from him. I need to try to find me again because I am confused at what I am doing, how I want to look, where I want to go, and so on. I am going to start with cleaning my place the way I want then decorations. Then focus on what I am doing with my life, work or play. Finally, I will focus on what I want to look like to make me happy. I know this sounds crazy, but I let too many people detour me from my goals and aspirations by trying their ways which made me lose track of me. I am excited about this journey, even though I have started late in life.